Friday, October 7, 2011

when a heart breaks, it dont break even....

Where do I even begin this topic is as common as the passing wind, as universal as sand on the beach and as ordinary as the moon at night. Being in love and being heartbroken. Love is so powerful because being loved causes one to love oneself. Nothing contributes to the self-image more than being loved by another. When the words, “I love you” are expressed to you for the first time, your world blossoms, your heart glows with inspiration, confidence and thoughts of the mountains you can move. It’s more than an emotional kick; suddenly you like yourself more than you ever have before.
 Oh, that sweet feeling of falling in love! That dizzying magical enchanted feeling – that all is right with the world, and certainly with you, swept off your feet as you are. It is a mingling of hearts and souls. A slight tingle, a funny feeling in the tummy, a racing heart, is to be expected. You can literally see sparks fly. Passion is a wonderful thing. It makes us feel more alive, more connected to the world. Shakespeare once said ...Love is not love, Which alters when it alteration finds, Or Bends with the remover to remove. O, no! It is an ever-fixed mark, That looks on tempests and is never shaken. It is the star to every wandering bark, whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Then tragedies struck you get yourself heartbroken, Heartbreak can be caused by many different circumstances and that's what makes this emotion easily recognized by nearly every person on the planet. It can result from the loss of a loved one, a partner, a friend and even a close pet. Or it can be caused from disappointment, betrayal or a change from known surroundings. It might not even be a loss at all but a sense of loss, or the realization that the love of the person you care most for is drifting far from where it had always been. Heartbreak is more than just an emotional defeat; to some the pain is very real. At one point or another, everyone must experience this mind numbing feeling.
At the beginning you might feel enraged and infuriated; you launch a vendetta against the world. You might break things and burn things which usually end with an animalistic heart throbbing sobs. Later the melancholia sets in, which can cause such an intense reaction that you may feel your life has been completely stripped of meaning. Jobs, hobbies, and friends may no longer hold any joy. You feel so low and you feel like no one understands you, and when they try to you just think they have never felt like this and they never will.

Every song reminds you of them, and everything you do or see reminds you of them, you lie in bed thinking about them, you watch your phone 24/7 to see if they will call you. You go through pictures of you both all the time; you stalk his/her facebook/myspace to see if they are moving on from you.
You want to see them so much it hurts. You imagine you can’t live without them ever again and you will never be able to find someone like that again ever. No one understands you or will care for you like they did. You cry the entire time non stop and generally feel as low as anything. You feel like running but not going anywhere....it hurts to breathe and it hurts to not breathe...your face is burning hot and wet due to tears.. It felt like someone just siphoned out all the happiness from your body, and you felt like there was nothing you could do but feel depressed... and you couldn't stop thinking about what happened.
Finally the acceptance phase, where you accept that you are never meant to be, while you know like there's no point in even breathing now they're not with you and your future is completely empty without them. Every little thing reminds you of them and the thought of them moving on without you nearly kills you. Every single kiss every single touch roamed in the corner of your memories like film playing on cue. You grasp the astringent authenticity that all avenue for true love have close it doors forever... you now led a solitary destitute of life without love.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

there is a big difference when you decide to close the door to love, happiness is a choice isnt tht wht you always say my beautiful flower. in the word of William Wordsworth:
Glory in a flower
What though the radiance which was once so bright
Be now for ever taken from my sight,
Though nothing can bring back the hour
Of splendor in the grass, of glory in the flower;
We will grieve not, rather find
Strength in what remains behind;
In the primal sympathy
Which having been must ever be;
In the soothing thoughts that spring
Out of human suffering;
In the faith that looks through death,
In years that bring the philosophic mind.
( if i remembered correctly this was your favorite poem-i hope it is still is)
Born to ride (:

QuEeN oF tHe DaMnEd said...

yes it is still my fovorite poem,pourquoi faites-vous cela? vous m'avez fait assez de douleur, laissez-moi passer en paix. Je ne pourrai jamais être avec vous

Anonymous said...

Je fais cela parce que je t'aime. Je veux que vous touchez à nouveau vous embrasser encore une fois, je veux être avec vous. vous me complète, je sais ce que je faisais était mal s'il vous plaît me donner un deuxième choix

QuEeN oF tHe DaMnEd said...

NON! Je vous ai donné assez de chances, je ne suis pas allez vous donner une autre chance de ruiner ma vie .. laisse-moi tranquille!!!

Anonymous said...

Je ne suis jamais abandonner. Je vais attendre pour vous jusqu'au jour où je quitte ce monde. chaque fois que vous tournez, vous me verrez en regardant votre dos. mon amour au revoir. J'enverrai le vent de me donner vos baisers

QuEeN oF tHe DaMnEd said...

whatever!